Sunday, July 29

Our Kids

A couple of weeks ago I tried to get some good photos of the kids to use in a canvas art project.  I didn't get exactly what I was hoping to get but some of the pics are okay.  I mean, it's hard to get a bad photo when your subjects are super cute. ;-)  

(I like this one because it's easy to see that the gap between Beth and Luke is slowly closing!  I'm not sure how tall he is but I think his feet have gone through another growth spurt recently so I'm willing to bet his body is about to catch up.)

Sunday, July 22

A New Chapter

It's been a little over a week since the last time Jack and I nursed, I think his last day was July 11.  I've been dreading this time for months now, for several reasons.

I am a big believer in baby-led weaning, and I had no desire to stop nursing Jack.  Yes, it would get a little frustrating that every time I would sit down his little radar would go off and he'd immediately find me and jump into my lap, but it wasn't frustrating enough to wean.  Even at 2 years old, he was still receiving health benefits from my milk, and it was comforting for me to know that on a night when he didn't eat any dinner because his new molars were hurting, he'd still be nourished from me.  Plus, we had special cuddle time every morning in bed... He'd play with my hair and we'd both doze in and out of sleep while he nursed. 

But on the morning of the 12th, Jack slept in until 8:40 am.  That's about 2 hours later than usual!  He woke up and immediately sat down to breakfast, and so we didn't nurse.  The rest of the day we were very busy and he never asked, by the time he went to bed that night I decided that it was a good opportunity for us to wean.  The next day he asked to nurse and I quickly changed the subject and distracted him with something else... This went on for a week.  He was very sad, and it was really hard for me to tell him that he couldn't have Mommy's nursies anymore. :-(  I nearly gave in several times because it's been very hard emotionally for him as well.  He hasn't asked for the past two days,so I think we're on the other side of things now.

The reason I decided to take the opportunity wasn't because I wanted to, but because I felt like it was my last ditch effort to help me feel "normal" again.  I have been pregnant and/or breastfeeding since April of 2006, and today I calculated I've breastfeed my babies for a total of over 4 years.  My hormones have taken quite a beating, and despite my attempts at trying to stabilize my moods naturally I still don't feel quite like I did before I had babies.  Since I chart my fertility and am really observant about how I am feeling and when I'm feeling that way, and since I have had my hormones tested, I know that it's a progesterone issue.  The supplements I've taken (B complex, additional B6, and St. John's Wort) have definitely helped!  But I felt like I weaning was my last chance.

So Jack Jack and I had two beautiful years, and I am so grateful for that.  Jack and I were so blessed.  I guess now it's time for us to move on to a new chapter in our lives, and hopefully my body will be able to figure things out sooner rather than later! 

Wednesday, July 18

Lazy Days

I am so very much enjoying our lazy summer.  We had swim lessons for the first two weeks in June, then after that I have done pretty much NOTHING.  We've had playdates with long-lost friends that I wish we could see more often, we've gone to the library, we've played inside and outside.  Most importantly, we've not had anything scheduled- no meetings, no ballet or gymnastics, no nothing.  We're working on our own schedule, so there's no rushing out the door to make it somewhere by a certain time.  How wonderful!

I feel like I've just really needed this, and by actually being sort of lazy I'm watching the kids grow up in a different way.  The three of them have been playing really well lately together, playing for an hour at a time with minimal involvement from me needed.  Usually it ends in someone getting a bump or bruise, but for the most part it's some serious make-believe play from everyone. 

Beth has become less concerned, not asking "what are we going to do next?" as often as she used to!

Beth and Luke wanted to wear their babies using my Moby wrap and a rebozo that I use with my doula clients (what Jack is wearing).  We found another piece of fabric for Luke to wear his baby, but I didn't get a photo!  All three of them played Mommy and Daddy for the rest of the day.

Monday, July 9

Healing Luke

I've written occasionally about how Luke has been dealing with chronic constipation since he was about 18 months old. He's had several xrays to confirm that he's constipated and over the years we've seen two pediatricians and Beth's pediatric GI specialist to try to get him some help. It's a very common issue for little kids- especially boys for some reason- and the general protocol for this is a daily dose of miralax. So, he was on miralax for several months.
Ryan and I were always concerned with having him on daily miralax... It's supposed to be harmless, but our thought was that it's not curing the actual cause of the problem, just covering up the fact that there is a problem. We decided to turn to a naturopathic doctor; it was a big decision because she's not on our insurance but we decided Luke's health was worth it!
For the first time as a parent visiting a doctor, I felt validated by a doctor. Yes, she's an MD, but naturopaths can't be licensed in the state of Texas so she's licensed elsewhere but practicing here. She listened to everything I was concerned about- how I wondered if some of Luke's misbehavior was caused by his discomfort of being constipated, if there could be an underlying health issue that was causing the constipation, wondering if his behavior is typical for a 3.5 year-old-boy... 
Don't get me wrong, we know Luke is a very well-behaved, well-mannered young man! But I can't help but wonder...What if he could be physically better? What sort of change would happen to his attitude, his behavior, his mind, if his gut were healed? These are things that our naturopath takes into consideration, and it's so nice for me, as a mother, to have a doctor actually actively listen to me!
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